Mindfulness: A practice sometimes lost in the midst of hectic schedules and looming deadlines, but a place to savor small moments. To discover that beautiful balance between giving to others and caring for oneself. A place to feel rested and whole.
To say that my thought process is centered around mindfulness would be far from the truth. There was a time during the year when I believed that caring for myself was selfish. I was so intent on reaching out to others as the exclusive goal that I lost respect and love for myself along the way. This, in turn, impacted the way I interacted with others…
The tipping point came through journaling. Journaling is my therapy. It’s honest; it’s simple and it’s been with me since the age of 10. In times as these, putting profound thoughts into written words comes more easily than impetuous and emotional vocal articulation ever will. When it’s difficult to speak; when I can’t bring myself to say the words…journaling is mindful meditation and an engine of self-reflection.
I will never forget that one day…
In the midst of daily chronicle, I discovered thought patterns which shocked me on paper! Things I had brushed aside during the day. Things that were building up…In order to be a more healthy individual, I had to debunk some of these inner beliefs and thought patterns. I suppose, in its own way, journaling brought me to an intervention of sorts. Something I had been needing for quite some time..
It’s amazing how light and free it feels to come to terms with yourself! To understand that everything is connected. One thing I love about giving back is that feeling of love and fulfillment for others. Truly making a difference in the community. But, at the end of the day, to not replenishing that love through self love, is to go only half the distance. Why cheat oneself of happiness if it it staring you in the face?
That piece of paper changed my perspective and has been a catalyst of what I like to call operation mindfulness: my mind and body cleanse. I have set goals to be be more present in my interactions with others, to be mindful of how I am treating my mind and body. I have already found a deeper appreciation for others and for myself and am excited for this positive change in my life.
The internal and the external are crucial components of the yin and yang of existence. To focus on one more than the other is to dismantle an indispensable balance. To be grateful; to truly cherish oneself and others: this is the happiness everyone deserves. ❤